{"id":1648,"date":"2026-05-05T01:17:05","date_gmt":"2026-05-04T21:17:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/imza.info\/?p=1648"},"modified":"2026-05-05T01:17:05","modified_gmt":"2026-05-04T21:17:05","slug":"sahmar-qoyungoz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/imza.info\/?p=1648","title":{"rendered":"\u015eahmar: Qoyung\u00f6z"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u015eahmar\u0131n hekay\u0259si<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

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Qoyung\u00f6z<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Getm\u0259k, m\u00fctl\u0259q getm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Getm\u0259k, getm\u0259k. \u0130namla, q\u0259ti v\u0259 ciddi. K\u0259nd\u0259 gedir\u0259m, evimiz\u0259. Gedim g\u00f6r\u00fcm nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rlar. Ba\u015f qa\u015f\u0131ma\u011fa vaxt yoxdur, vallah. Sabah, ya birig\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram. \u0130ni\u015fil getdiyimdir. Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 yuxuda anam\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fitmi\u015f\u0259m, \u201cg\u0259l\u201d deyir, \u201cg\u0259l\u201d. S\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xsam, g\u00fcnortadan sonra ordayam. Sabah \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram, gedir\u0259m sabah. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 \u0259linizd\u0259n, s\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fczd\u0259n, d\u0131\u011f-d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zdan can\u0131m qurtarar. N\u0259 var, n\u0259 olub, niy\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 bax\u0131rsan, t\u0259z\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n m\u0259ni, b\u0259lk\u0259, d\u0259d\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6ym\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, h\u0131yy? Bu u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n dizi harda c\u0131z\u0131l\u0131b, g\u00f6z\u00fcn kordur, g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n? Han\u0131 m\u0259nim corablar\u0131m? Bu, \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131, bu, \u015fkaf\u0131n yan\u0131, bu da stulun… Budu m\u0259nim corablar\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Sakit ol, sakit… Niy\u0259 h\u0259r eviniz\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259, ya getm\u0259k \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 kefin pozulur, dilxor olursan, arvad-u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n qan\u0131n\u0131 qarald\u0131rsan. Bu dilxorlu\u011fun yersiz oldu\u011funu qan\u0131rsan, qand\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc danlay\u0131rsan, s\u00f6y\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, ay\u0259, filan-filan \u015f\u00fcd\u0259, bel\u0259 olmaz, bel\u0259 yaramaz ax\u0131… \u018fksin\u0259, s\u0259n atan\u0131, anan\u0131, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131, da\u015f\u0131, k\u0259rpici u\u015faql\u0131qdan s\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fma olan evinizi, eyvan\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 sevinm\u0259lis\u0259n. Sevinmir\u0259m? Kim deyir sevinmir\u0259m? Sakit ol… G\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n, yola d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini bil\u0259-bil\u0259 niy\u0259 s\u0259ni tutqun hisl\u0259r b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr? El\u0259 ki yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn, bu hisl\u0259r yolun h\u0259r kilometrind\u0259 \u2013 yol is\u0259 400 kilometrdir \u2013 art\u0131b a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r, zindana d\u00f6n\u00fcb \u00fcr\u0259yinin ba\u015f\u0131ndan as\u0131l\u0131r, d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z olur lap. S\u0259n bu hisl\u0259rin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu duymusanm\u0131? Yox! Yalan dem\u0259. Duyma\u011f\u0131na duyuram, amma… (h\u0259, sonra?) \u0259slini bilmir\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259, bilm\u0259k ist\u0259… B\u0259li, daha do\u011frusu, \u0259slini bilm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lib ki, bu hisl\u0259ri ara\u015fd\u0131rsan, bilm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259n, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanmaz g\u00fcnah i\u015f tutmu\u015f olarsan. S\u0259nd\u0259n olsayd\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, getm\u0259zdin (el\u0259dirmi?), getm\u0259liydin, ancaq m\u00fctl\u0259q getm\u0259liydin. \u0130\u015f i\u015fd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra (Allah uzaq el\u0259sin) sin\u0259si atdana-atdana g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdin v\u0259 onda qohum-qarda\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

Dualarla ba\u015flayan, s\u00fckutla bit\u0259n\u2026 – \u0130lqar \u0130lkin
\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yin \u0259n q\u0131sa yolu – G\u00fclt\u0259kin C\u0259f\u0259rova
\nRasim \u018fliyev: “Heyd\u0259r \u018fliyev m\u0259n\u0259 dedi ki, h\u0259r \u015feyi d\u00fczg\u00fcn etmis\u0259n” – TAR\u0130X\u0130 \u015e\u018fXS\u0130YY\u018fT
\nBudur, g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259n d\u0259, a\u011f\u0131r hiss\u0259l\u0259ri qar kimi yara-yara g\u0259lmis\u0259n. Bu da evimiz. Xo\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fck, xo\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fck, ay m\u0259nim atamdan, anamdan da cavan, ancaq onlardan \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox qoca divar\u0131 \u00e7atdaq evimiz! Nec\u0259s\u0259n? Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 evimizin do\u011fma g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259l\u00e7atmazl\u0131q, yadl\u0131q duyursan. Duydu\u011fun anda da ana qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, qucaqlay\u0131r s\u0259ni, q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nir, q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nib k\u00f6vr\u0259ldiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutur (institutda oxudu\u011fun vaxtlar anan s\u0259ni qar\u015f\u0131layanda sevincind\u0259n a\u011flayar, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131ndan utanmazd\u0131), harasa yana ba\u015f\u0131yla \u201c\u0259hh\u201d el\u0259yir, eyvana stul qoyur, pi\u015fiyi qovur, \u00fczl\u00fc toyuqlar\u0131 ki\u015fl\u0259yir, t\u0259z\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b \u00e7inn\u0259diyi s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259nin d\u0259stini ba\u011flay\u0131r, h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259siz h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri, k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz g\u00f6zl\u0259ri gileylidir. \u201cDo\u011fdum, b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcm, nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcm, n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcm, he\u00e7 k\u0259sin x\u0259b\u0259ri olmad\u0131, x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri olsayd\u0131, neyl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r, \u0259limin birini od yand\u0131rd\u0131, birini sazaq k\u0259sdi, b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcm, u\u00e7ub-getdi, n\u0259 d\u0259rdimd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri var, n\u0259 s\u0259rimd\u0259n. Xalx\u0131nk\u0131lar…\u201d<\/p>\n

G\u00fclm\u0259li d\u0259 olsa, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, anan qovdu\u011fu pi\u015fikd\u0259, ki\u015fl\u0259diyi toyuqda, \u00e7inn\u0259diyi s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259nin h\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fcnd\u0259 bel\u0259 s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcr, s\u0259nn\u0259ndi i\u015fi. A\u011fl\u0131n k\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259n bilirs\u0259n ki, anan s\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir (indi s\u0259n u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259diyint\u0259k), ist\u0259yib, ist\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdir v\u0259 haz\u0131rda bu ist\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 vaxtsa s\u0259n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 yara\u015fan, a\u011fappaq, qar kimi t\u0259z\u0259, ancaq indi k\u00f6hn\u0259lib, bozarm\u0131\u015f k\u00f6yn\u0259yint\u0259k bax\u0131rsan. S\u0259n\u0259 olan m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259rinin bozar\u0131b boyatla\u015fmas\u0131ndan o\u011flanlar\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri olacaqd\u0131, g\u00f6r\u0259n? Anana olan m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tinin boyatla\u015fmas\u0131ndan s\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259 kimi, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015f tapmayacaqsan.<\/p>\n

\u018fll\u0259ri i\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259n anan i\u00e7ind\u0259 hans\u0131 bayat\u0131n\u0131sa deyib g\u00fcm\u00fcld\u0259nir, s\u0259ns\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcn \u00e7atmayan da\u015f kimi oturub atan\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirs\u0259n. H\u00f6km kimi, q\u0259rar kimi. Be\u015f saat, on saat ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n (n\u0259tic\u0259ni be\u015fbarmaqt\u0259k bils\u0259n d\u0259), g\u00f6r\u0259n, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k?<\/p>\n

Zo\u011fal m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259siyl\u0259 \u00e7ay i\u00e7irs\u0259n \u2013 \u00e7ay dads\u0131zd\u0131r, ya a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n tam\u0131 yoxdur. Siqaret \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n bir-birinin oduna yand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sanki bo\u011faz\u0131na z\u0259h\u0259r yax\u0131blar. \u0130r\u0259liki vaxtlarda oldu\u011fut\u0259k \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259n ax\u015fam\u0131n h\u0259zin q\u0259ribliyin\u0259, tan\u0131\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259rin, duy\u011fular\u0131n axar\u0131na qovu\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n \u2013 bacarm\u0131rsan. \u00dcr\u0259yinin ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q s\u0259n\u0259 mane olur. Atan g\u0259lir. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131z h\u00f6kml\u0259, z\u0259rbl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan diksinirs\u0259n. S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir, atan g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n ayan oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qap\u0131n\u0131 hirsl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131r. Bu andan, qap\u0131n\u0131n lovla a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 andan s\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k ki, atan n\u0259 el\u0259s\u0259, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fsa, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259nin ac\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u2013 bunun m\u0259nas\u0131z fikir oldu\u011funu qansan da \u2013 el\u0259yir, \u00fcmidsizlik i\u00e7ind\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131ra-q\u0131ra anlay\u0131rsan ki, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcn, daha do\u011frusu, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcn ax\u015fam\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r atan s\u0259ninl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc. Son zamanlar, on ild\u0259n \u00e7oxdur, o, s\u0259ni \u00f6pm\u00fcr, riyakarl\u0131qla fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n ki, daha oturu\u015fmu\u015f-duru\u015fmu\u015f ki\u015fis\u0259n, h\u0259lb\u0259t ona g\u00f6r\u0259 (b\u0259 n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259?) \u0259l verib g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, tutqun \u00fcz\u00fc daha da tutqunla\u015f\u0131r, a\u011f\u0131zucu \u201cxo\u015f g\u0259libs\u0259n\u201d deyir, gah da… demir. O, deyinti dolu s\u0259sl\u0259, p\u0131qq\u0131ldaya-p\u0131qq\u0131ldaya qaramatt\u0259k \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir (ist\u0259mirs\u0259n onu, \u201co\u011ful, belind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n atas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259lidir\u201d fikrini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259-d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 ist\u0259mirs\u0259n onu), k\u00f6hn\u0259 papa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 al\u00e7aq taxt\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 tolazlay\u0131r, \u0259yi\u015f-\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131r, sa\u011f tay\u0131n\u0131 hirsli-hirsli, kimis\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi (niy\u0259 g\u0259lirdin ax\u0131, niy\u0259?) taxt\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. \u201cAya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 haldan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b, taq-taq… S\u0259lv\u0259r\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f d\u00f6y\u0259n\u0259k el\u0259yib, taaq-taaq… Taxtaya-d\u0259mir\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u0259rib, taaq-taaq…\u201d<\/p>\n

Toz, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6n v\u0259 t\u00fcnd, k\u0259sif ayaq t\u0259rinin iyi… Anan\u0131n g\u0259tirdiyi bir par\u00e7 suyu ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259yib, diqq\u0259t k\u0259sil\u0259-k\u0259sil\u0259 nifr\u0259tl\u0259 i\u00e7ir, \u0259linin dal\u0131yla dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 silib \u201cqan kimidir\u201d s\u00f6yl\u0259yir. Sonra bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t dabanlar\u0131 yerd\u0259, dimdik dayanm\u0131\u015f qo\u015fa ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131r. Sanki \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc onlara tutub \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi s\u00f6hb\u0259ti onlarla el\u0259yir. Vallah-billah, f\u0259hmn\u0259n hiss el\u0259yirs\u0259n ki, atan ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n birinin yerind\u0259 (ya sa\u011f, ya sol), ya el\u0259 h\u0259r ikisinin yerind\u0259 s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcr, s\u0259nn\u0259n gap el\u0259yir (bunu lap d\u0259qiq duyursan). \u00c7\u00fcnki onun fikri uzun ayr\u0131l\u0131qdan sonra g\u0259lib b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259 oturmu\u015f o\u011flunda da olmay\u0131b harda olas\u0131d\u0131r ki? G\u00fccs\u00fcz, k\u00f6vr\u0259k, k\u00fcsk\u00fcn bir hiss duyursan. Bu duy\u011fu sin\u0259nd\u0259ki a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u0259ridir. Bax el\u0259 bu andan s\u0259n atan\u0131 sevm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Oralarda n\u0259 var, n\u0259 yox? \u2013 atan\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259 yor\u011funluqdan \u00e7ox, q\u0259dimlik duyursan.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259r \u015fey \u0259vv\u0259lki kimidir. \u2013 Bilirs\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259n bel\u0259 cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259mirl\u0259r. B\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n? Dey\u0259s\u0259n el\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcl, bel\u0259dir? Ax\u0131 bel\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcl, el\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

Atan k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb susur. Bu, k\u00f6ks deyil, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki qubar yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k kimi bir \u015feydir. Yan\u0131na qoydu\u011fu \u00e7oma\u011f\u0131 bird\u0259n nifr\u0259tl\u0259, qeyzl\u0259 eyvan\u0131n qaranl\u0131q k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131r. O d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bu \u00e7oma\u011f\u0131n yerind\u0259 hiss edirs\u0259n v\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n ki, \u0259g\u0259r, i\u015fdi-\u015fay\u0259tdi, bu \u00e7omaq canl\u0131 olub, birc\u0259 damc\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131 olsayd\u0131, \u00fcst\u0259lik, Allah ona dil vers\u0259ydi, y\u0259qin, \u00e7omaq susmaz (s\u0259ns\u0259 susarsan), dill\u0259n\u0259rdi ki, n\u0259dir ax\u0131 m\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m? Q\u0131rx\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131 azca \u0259s\u0259-\u0259s\u0259 atan \u2013 o, s\u0259n\u0259 baxmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259n yandan onun ba\u015f\u0131na c\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131rsan v\u0259 bu d\u0259m \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 oyanm\u0131\u015f d\u0259li ist\u0259kl\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n ki, atan\u0131n qocalm\u0131\u015f, ke\u015fm\u0259ke\u015fli, a\u011farm\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131xasan (balaca o\u011flun s\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131t\u0259k, s\u0259n d\u0259 ona s\u0131\u011f\u0131nasan) v\u0259 ondan qorxmayasan, o, s\u0259n\u0259 yad g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131, do\u011fma, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259 \u2013 bu d\u0259f\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131na yox, v\u0259rdi\u015f etdiyi ad\u0259tl\u0259 yana \u2013 qaranl\u0131\u011fa bax\u0131r, bax\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 \u0259yilir, yuxu apar\u0131r onu, ustub-ustub xorna \u00e7\u0259kir v\u0259 tez d\u0259 ay\u0131l\u0131r \u2013 s\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni duymu\u015f kimi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018f\u0259, \u2013 anan\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r (o, anana h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u201c\u0259\u0259\u201d deyir, hirsl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259, d\u0259li q\u0259z\u0259b onu b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 \u201caaz\u201d deyir, \u201caaazz\u201d). \u2013 Bir gil\u0259 su g\u0259tir \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 vurum, \u00fcz\u00fcm g\u00f6n\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

S\u0259sinin ah\u0259ngind\u0259 el\u0259 bir yor\u011funluq, laqeydlik var ki, indic\u0259 yuxusu haqda a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n fikrin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 utan\u0131b x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n. Ovcundak\u0131 suyu da sif\u0259tin\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131r. O, bunu s\u0259nin ac\u0131\u011f\u0131nam\u0131 el\u0259yir? Alababat quruland\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259smal\u0131 da papa\u011f\u0131 atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0259mt\u0259 tullay\u0131r. Anan \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sar\u0131msaql\u0131 qat\u0131q t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bad\u0131mcan \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rtmas\u0131 \u2013 evinizin \u0259n\u0259n\u0259vi x\u00f6r\u0259yini g\u0259tirir. Atan v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini d\u0259yi\u015fib yanp\u00f6rt\u00fc oturur. T\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi boyat \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k kimi etinas\u0131z, h\u0259v\u0259ssiz k\u0259sir, s\u0259n\u0259 baxmadan anandan:<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u015eahmar \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yeyibmi? \u2013 soru\u015fur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u0130ndic\u0259 yemi\u015f\u0259m, \u2013 anan\u0131n \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 s\u0259n cavab verirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Y\u0259qin, atan\u0131 s\u0259n ham\u0131dan \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. Ancaq n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, ondan uzaqdasan, s\u0259nd\u0259ki ist\u0259k d\u0259 q\u0259lbinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r uzaqd\u0131r. El\u0259 ki g\u0259lirs\u0259n, atanla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259ki o ist\u0259k d\u0259 sars\u0131nt\u0131lardan, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259-ke\u00e7\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, bulaq suyu kimi durulur, bu da ki \u0259ziyy\u0259tli v\u0259 iztirabl\u0131 bir i\u015fdir.<\/p>\n

Atan \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi iri tik\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 bat\u0131r\u0131b a\u011fz\u0131na apar\u0131r, ovurdlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259d\u0259-t\u0259rp\u0259d\u0259 yeyir. S\u0259nin burda, ikiadd\u0131ml\u0131qda oturma\u011f\u0131n onun i\u015ftahas\u0131n\u0131 pozur, dey\u0259s\u0259n. Bunun n\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 do\u011fru olub-olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259s\u0259n d\u0259, lap el\u0259 bu fikir a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259ldiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bu, s\u0259n\u0259 toxunur. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 tik\u0259sini a\u011fz\u0131na aparanda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131r, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259si uzan\u0131r v\u0259 s\u0259n onun yuxar\u0131 baxan \u015fi\u015fmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131nda s\u0259rtlik, yadl\u0131q, \u00f6geylik duyursan. B\u0259lk\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir? G\u0259ldi, g\u0259lm\u0259di, bu duy\u011fu s\u0259ni \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Atan x\u00f6r\u0259yini yeyib-qurtaran anda qarda\u015f\u0131n qoyunlar\u0131 g\u0259tirir. Darvazan\u0131n \u015faqq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131, m\u0259l\u0259\u015fm\u0259, \u015f\u0131pp\u0131lt\u0131, qoyun iyiyl\u0259 birg\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcn-d\u00fcz\u00fcn azad, s\u0259rb\u0259st \u0259tri, yun qoxusu h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 dolur. H\u00fcnd\u00fcrboy, q\u0131vr\u0131msa\u00e7, qollar\u0131 uzun, \u0259ll\u0259ri iri qarda\u015f\u0131n qaranl\u0131qdan i\u015f\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bah, \u015eahmar, xo\u015f g\u0259libs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Atan burda, yan\u0131n\u0131zda oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 qarda\u015f kimi yox, tan\u0131\u015f kimi, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 tan\u0131\u015flar kimi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. Qarda\u015f\u0131n s\u0259ni bir-iki d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn isti, il\u0131q, \u00e7o\u015fqun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla s\u00fcz\u00fcr, k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259-\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 sevinir (sevinirmi?), fal\u00e7\u0131 kimi bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 sif\u0259tind\u0259 n\u0259yis\u0259 axtar\u0131r, axtara-axtara n\u00f6vb\u0259yl\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, aln\u0131na, sonra yen\u0259 d\u00fcz g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 bax\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Atan sizin g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fczd\u0259n naraz\u0131t\u0259k, s\u0259sind\u0259 giley-g\u00fczar duyula-duyula qarda\u015f\u0131ndan soru\u015fur:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Harda otar\u0131rd\u0131n qoyunlar\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u00f6hn\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259nin yerind\u0259, sonra da tax\u0131l\u0131n q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131m\u0131 otdad\u0131lar?<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259\u0259.<\/p>\n

Atan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirir. El\u0259 bil qoyunlar\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 otlama\u011f\u0131 da onun \u00fcr\u0259yinc\u0259 deyil. Qarda\u015f\u0131n penc\u0259yini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yumal\u0131d\u0131r, oturub \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yem\u0259lidir, lakin bax\u0131\u015f\u0131nda, duru\u015funda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir sirr var. Y\u00f6n\u00fc atana t\u0259r\u0259f dayan\u0131b. Atan bunu \u0259l\u00fcst\u00fc duyur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 var?<\/p>\n

Atan\u0131n s\u0259rt s\u0259si qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki sirrin par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bir damc\u0131 da azaltm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Heyvanlar\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm d\u0259r\u0259d\u0259ki b\u00f6y\u00fcrtk\u0259nlikd\u0259 qoyun m\u0259l\u0259yir. \u0130r\u0259li ged\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm bir \u015fi\u015f\u0259k…<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 \u015fi\u015f\u0259k? \u2013 atan altdan dik qarda\u015f\u0131na bax\u0131r. Qarda\u015f\u0131n qaranl\u0131qda qeyb olur. Qoyunlar t\u0259rp\u0259\u015fir, h\u00fcrk\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fccl\u00fc, iti h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti qaranl\u0131qda bilinir v\u0259 az ke\u00e7mir, o, qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda dayan\u0131r. Sa\u011f \u0259liyl\u0259 s\u00fcys\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259n yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131, bo\u011faz\u0131 muncuqlu, \u00f6z\u00fc a\u011f, dizl\u0259rinin g\u00f6z\u00fc, qa\u015fqas\u0131 qara, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri diri \u015fi\u015f\u0259k, atanla s\u0259nin ona birt\u0259h\u0259r baxma\u011f\u0131ndan, boynundak\u0131 g\u00fccl\u00fc barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n qorxulu t\u0259mas\u0131ndan bu h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259, bu qoyunlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda yad oldu\u011funu duydu\u011fundan h\u0259y\u0259canla, \u00fcrk\u0259k-\u00fcrk\u0259k b\u0259rkd\u0259n m\u0259l\u0259yir. Atan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yer\u0259 dik\u0259n kimi qarda\u015f\u0131n \u015fi\u015f\u0259yi burax\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qatd\u0131m heyvana, g\u0259tirdim m\u0259n d\u0259, \u2013 qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcmrah s\u0259si \u00f6zg\u0259 \u015fey deyir amma. S\u0259n bunu tuta bilmirs\u0259n, anlaya bilmirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Kimindi? \u2013 atan bu sual\u0131 el\u0259 verir ki, el\u0259 bil qarda\u015f\u0131n qoyunun kimin oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259lidir, ya da bilir.<\/p>\n

Qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki sirrin par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 g\u00f6zg\u00f6r\u0259si art\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 C\u0259f\u0259r ki\u015finin olacaq, g\u00fcnd\u00fcz onun ki\u00e7ik g\u0259d\u0259si qoyunu oralarda h\u0259rr\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Ortal\u0131\u011fa s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr. S\u00fckut? Niy\u0259? N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn? N\u0259 s\u00fckutdur bu? Bu saat burda el\u0259 bir m\u0259r\u0259k\u0259 qopmal\u0131d\u0131r ki…<\/p>\n

\u2013 Sabah, \u2013 s\u0259nin fikrinc\u0259 atan gec dill\u0259nir, \u2013 s\u0259h\u0259r qoyunlar\u0131 aparanda \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r, xalx\u0131n qoyununu ver \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259m-t\u0259l\u0259sik, s\u0259sin tovlana-tovlana (s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?):<\/p>\n

\u2013 Gedib indi dem\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r, axtaracaqlar, \u2013 deyirs\u0259n. \u018fmins\u0259n ki, heyvan\u0131 axtaracaqlar v\u0259 tapmayacaqlar. C\u0259f\u0259r ki\u015fi d\u0259 balaca g\u0259d\u0259sini m\u00f6hk\u0259m d\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259k. Qarda\u015f\u0131n, getm\u0259k n\u0259dir, he\u00e7 q\u0131m\u0131ldanm\u0131r da. Bel\u0259c\u0259, dir\u0259k kimi hans\u0131 niyy\u0259tl\u0259s\u0259 dayan\u0131b durub, par\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 atandan \u00e7\u0259kmir.<\/p>\n

Ondak\u0131 bu niyy\u0259tin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilmirs\u0259n, amma bilm\u0259y\u0259-bilm\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 indid\u0259n ondak\u0131 bu niyy\u0259t\u0259 nifr\u0259t el\u0259yirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 var? \u2013 atan\u0131n s\u0259si k\u0259skindi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ax\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 ax\u0131? \u2013 atanla birlikd\u0259 az qal\u0131rsan s\u0259n d\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rasan.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ke\u00e7\u0259n il pay\u0131zda bizim to\u011flumuzu g\u00fcnorta\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b? \u2013 o, atanla tay-tu\u015ft\u0259k dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u2013 D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 soru\u015fdum ki, \u201cC\u0259f\u0259r ki\u015fi, g\u00f6rm\u0259mis\u0259n to\u011flunu?\u201d \u201cG\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m\u201d dedi. Ax\u0131r ki\u00e7ik o\u011flunu tovlay\u0131b, \u00fc\u00e7 manat ver\u0259nd\u0259n sonra dedi ki, d\u0259d\u0259m k\u0259sib.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Deyirs\u0259n, indi biz d\u0259 bu \u015fi\u015f\u0259yi k\u0259sib i\u00e7\u0259ri \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k, el\u0259mi?<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, atan h\u0259m d\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri s\u0259n\u0259 deyir, s\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fur. S\u0259nd\u0259n niy\u0259? G\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 iliydi ki, s\u0259n onlar\u0131n he\u00e7 birinin i\u015fin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131n. Qonaq kimi g\u0259lir, qonaq kimi d\u0259 gedirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011ful kimi s\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259n\u0259\u015fir, fikrini soru\u015furlar? Qarda\u015f\u0131n haql\u0131 kimi \u00f6tk\u0259m-\u00f6tk\u0259m cavab verir:<\/p>\n

\u2013 O, bizim to\u011flumuzu yey\u0259nd\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131m\u0131 b\u0259? Soru\u015fduq, binamus \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259, \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259ki o\u011flunun can\u0131na and i\u00e7irdi ki, g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u0130ndi deyirs\u0259n, biz d\u0259, \u2013 d\u0259d\u0259nin son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 sevdiyin s\u0259sind\u0259 indi k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7ox istehza var, \u2013 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 \u0259l basaq, o\u011flumuzun can\u0131na and i\u00e7\u0259k?<\/p>\n

\u201cO\u011flumuzun\u201d \u2013 y\u0259ni s\u0259nin. S\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259n, instituta gir\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n evinizin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi, duzu, suyu il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131, onlar\u0131n (atan\u0131n, anan\u0131n, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n) and yeri olmu\u015fdun. \u201cO\u011flumuzun\u201d \u2013 indi bu k\u0259lm\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131nda vedr\u0259 danq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yir. G\u00fccs\u00fczl\u00fckd\u0259n \u00e7ox, \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131nl\u0131qla qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131q, q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng, kobud sif\u0259tin\u0259 bax\u0131rsan, ta bu sif\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 qaral\u0131b varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n idbar bir \u015fey\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n bax\u0131rsan v\u0259 s\u0259sin nifr\u0259td\u0259n \u0259s\u0259-\u0259s\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n yad adam\u0131n heyvan\u0131n\u0131 nec\u0259 yey\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n? \u2013 deyirs\u0259n. \u2013 G\u00fcnahd\u0131r, bo\u011faz\u0131nda qalar, qaytararsan!<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yey\u0259r\u0259m, lap can\u0131n\u0131 da alaram, \u2013 qarda\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131y\u0131b s\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 baxd\u0131 ki, sanki s\u0259nin n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n bilirdi, bildiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi (tez s\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nm\u0259yind\u0259n bilindi), g\u00f6zl\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259sind\u0259 z\u0259h\u0259r vard\u0131. \u2013 \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 su i\u00e7\u0259r\u0259m, o yey\u0259nd\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131yd\u0131, m\u0259n yey\u0259nd\u0259 pis?..<\/p>\n

Yox, s\u0259nin \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rin d\u00f6zm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Sa\u011f aya\u011f\u0131n s\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz ba\u015flay\u0131r \u0259sm\u0259y\u0259. \u201cSu murdarl\u0131q g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr\u201d deyirl\u0259r. On be\u015f ildir s\u0259n tap\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n, q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir t\u0259mizlik i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rsan. Ya\u015fay\u0131rsan? Ya\u015fay\u0131rsan da, ya\u015fam\u0131rsan da. On be\u015f ildir s\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fc ax\u015famlar ya\u015fam\u0131rsan. S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r \u2013 isti, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli, \u00fcmidli bir ist\u0259kl\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259r \u015feyi \u2013 ham\u0131n\u0131n, h\u0259r \u015feyin m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t\u0259, sevgiy\u0259 m\u00f6htac oldu\u011funu duya-duya sevirs\u0259n, tap\u0131rsan. Ax\u015famlar \u2013 fikird\u0259n, yor\u011funluqdan \u00e7ox laqeydlik b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr s\u0259ni \u2013 ham\u0131, h\u0259r \u015fey laqeydliyin boz p\u0259rd\u0259sin\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr, itirirs\u0259n. On be\u015f ildir bel\u0259c\u0259 \u2013 h\u0259r ilin \u00f6z g\u00fcnl\u0259ri, g\u00fcnl\u0259rin d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259ri. Bu pisdir, ya yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n sabah\u0131n da, birig\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259, o biri g\u00fcnl\u0259rin d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259ri olacaq. Bu, el\u0259 bir x\u0259zin\u0259di ki, bunun yan\u0131nda s\u0259nin x\u0259st\u0259 v\u0259 deying\u0259n arvad\u0131n\u0131n (s\u0259feh arvad), u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n taleyini h\u0259ll ed\u0259n b\u0259zi m\u00fch\u00fcm \u015feyl\u0259r he\u00e7 n\u0259dir, havay\u0131d\u0131r. R\u0259hm\u0259tlik n\u0259n\u0259n n\u0259 dey\u0259rdi? Dey\u0259rdi: \u201cOdumuz yoxdur, qa\u00e7, Xan\u0131m xalangild\u0259n yan\u0131l\u0131 k\u00f6s\u00f6v g\u0259tir, oca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u0259tir, oca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 qalayaq\u201d. K\u00f6s\u00f6v g\u0259tirm\u0259zdin, yox, iri par-par yanan bir k\u00f6z\u00fc ovcuna qoyub qa\u00e7ard\u0131n, \u00fcf\u00fcr\u0259-\u00fcf\u00fcr\u0259 bu ovcundan o ovcuna, o ovcundan bu ovcuna ata-ata qa\u00e7ard\u0131n, eviniz\u0259 \u00e7atanda n\u0259n\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rini dizin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpard\u0131, s\u0259ns\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259rdin (o an\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini indi ya\u015faya bil\u0259rs\u0259nmi?). On be\u015f ildir o t\u0259mizliyi \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 k\u00f6z kimi \u00fcf\u00fcr\u0259-\u00fcf\u00fcr\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131rsan. Ancaq b\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, o t\u0259mizlik \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00f6n\u00fcb (\u0259l\u0259lx\u00fcsus ax\u015famlar), k\u00fcl\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb. Bir d\u0259 ax\u0131 o t\u0259mizlik g\u00f6yd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yib, s\u0259n o t\u0259mizliyi burdan, evinizin odundan-oca\u011f\u0131ndan g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcs\u0259n. Yax\u015f\u0131, b\u0259s han\u0131 o odun-oca\u011f\u0131n, o t\u0259mizliyin dad\u0131-tam\u0131?<\/p>\n

Atan qaranl\u0131\u011fa baxa-baxa, s\u0259sind\u0259 qaranl\u0131q q\u0259d\u0259r sonsuzluq, zinriklik duyula-duyula dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc bir ki\u015fi qoyun otar\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. \u0130ki lotu fikirl\u0259\u015firl\u0259r ki, nec\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259k, bu ki\u015finin qoyunlar\u0131n\u0131n birini o\u011furlay\u0131b yey\u0259k. Lotunun biri o birind\u0259n bir az biciymi\u015f. H\u0259m\u0259n bic olan lotu deyir, m\u0259n tapd\u0131m. Bic olmayan lotu (o, y\u0259qin, s\u0259ns\u0259n) soru\u015fur ki, nec\u0259, n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r? Bic olan qay\u0131d\u0131r ki, m\u0259n ki\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatacam, o vaxt s\u0259n d\u0259 qoyunun birini x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 apararsan. Bunu deyib, lotu \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r bir yal\u0131n t\u0259p\u0259sin\u0259, ba\u015flay\u0131r bir aya\u011f\u0131 \u00fcstd\u0259 hoppan\u0131b d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ki, \u201cm\u0259n bu i\u015f\u0259 mat qalm\u0131\u015fam, m\u0259n bu i\u015f\u0259 mat qalm\u0131\u015fam\u201d. Qoyun otaran ki\u015fi d\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131r\u0131b tama\u015fa el\u0259yir ki, g\u00f6r\u0259n, bu n\u0259 i\u015fdir, n\u0259 hoqqad\u0131r. Bu vaxt bic olmayan lotu qoyunun birini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb aradan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Ki\u015fi, qoyun otaran b\u0259db\u0259xt ay\u0131l\u0131b g\u00f6r\u00fcr ki, qoyunun biri yoxdur. Ora qoyun, bura qoyun, han\u0131 qoyun, yoxdur qoyun, \u2013 atan g\u00fcld\u00fc. S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, atan o qoyun otaran\u0131n gicliyin\u0259, s\u0259fehliyin\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259di, n\u0259s\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u015fey\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fc. \u2013 Sonra ba\u015flay\u0131r o da (qoyun otaran ki\u015fi) bir aya\u011f\u0131 \u00fcstd\u0259 hoppan\u0131b d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ki, \u201cm\u0259n d\u0259 bu i\u015f\u0259 mat qalm\u0131\u015fam, m\u0259n d\u0259 bu i\u015f\u0259 mat qalm\u0131\u015fam\u201d.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi, ay bala, vallah, m\u0259n d\u0259 bu i\u015f\u0259 mat qalm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u201cAy bala\u201d \u2013 atan bu s\u00f6z\u00fc s\u0259n\u0259 deyir, s\u0259nn\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n

\u201cAy bala\u201d (n\u0259 var, d\u0259d\u0259?). S\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011fult\u0259k dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131, h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z yerin\u0259 qoymal\u0131san. Ancaq nec\u0259, n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r? S\u0259n bir az d\u0259rin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcns\u0259ydin (nec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259s\u0259n?), \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rin korlanmasayd\u0131, dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flayanda ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131n, dava-dava dem\u0259zdin. Ancaq s\u0259nin \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rin \u00e7oxdan korlan\u0131b, s\u0259brin d\u0259 ki t\u00fck\u0259nib bir tik\u0259 qal\u0131b, ya qalmay\u0131b. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018f, vicdans\u0131z, \u2013 dedin, \u2013 \u015f\u0259ri\u0259t\u0259, qanuna da qalanda \u00f6zg\u0259nin mal\u0131n\u0131 yem\u0259k bir yana, g\u00f6z dikm\u0259k bel\u0259 qada\u011fand\u0131r, g\u00fcnahd\u0131r. Qorxmursanm\u0131, bu, s\u0259nin \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259r, qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xar, bu, l\u0259k\u0259dir ax\u0131, el\u0259 bir l\u0259k\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u2013 L\u0259k\u0259dir, yuyub t\u0259mizl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m, arxay\u0131n ol. G\u00fcnaha, \u015f\u0259ri\u0259t\u0259 qalanda da, o g\u00fcnahkard\u0131r ki, heyvan\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zg\u00f6r\u0259ti yeyib, yediyi b\u0259s deyil, yalan da dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Bel\u0259sinin heyvan\u0131n\u0131 yem\u0259k halal yox, savabd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Atan t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcr, ba\u015f\u0131 \u0259s\u0259-\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qara qoyunlu, a\u011f qoyunlu Camal (ata baband\u0131), yax\u015f\u0131 ki, o nur g\u00f6zl\u0259rin tez yumuldu, g\u00f6rm\u0259din, g\u00f6rm\u0259din ki, yurdunda n\u0259 g\u00f6y\u0259rir, n\u0259 bitir.<\/p>\n

Burda s\u0259n d\u0259li olursan, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131m\u0131rsan. S\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 sadiq qalmaq, tabe olmaq hissi itir, yaln\u0131z s\u0259nin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n d\u0259li q\u0259z\u0259b qal\u0131r, o da s\u0259ni hop g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ir\u0259li tullay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018f\u0259, \u0259claf, \u2013 s\u0259n qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yaxas\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, \u2013 C\u0259f\u0259r ki\u015fi, b\u0259lk\u0259, al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n, binamusun biridir. S\u0259n d\u0259 ona bax\u0131b onun kimi olacaqsan, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onnan \u00f6l\u00e7\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259 nec\u0259 olum, \u0259? \u2013 k\u00fckr\u0259y\u0259n s\u0259sin m\u00f6hk\u0259mliyini, istiliyini, do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss ets\u0259n d\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 yad olmayan bu sin\u0259nin alt\u0131ndak\u0131 g\u00fcc\u00fcn, q\u00fcdr\u0259tin, inam\u0131n s\u0259ninkind\u0259n qat-qat art\u0131q oldu\u011funu duysan da, buna sevinm\u0259k, ucalmaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, nifr\u0259t edirs\u0259n. Qarda\u015f\u0131nam\u0131? B\u0259li, qarda\u015f oldu\u011funuz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, y\u0259ni do\u011fulan g\u00fcnd\u0259n qarda\u015f olub v\u0259 bird\u0259n, bu andan qarda\u015f olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. \u2013 O, \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n pisliyi m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259sin, m\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 deyim \u201c\u00e7ox sa\u011f ol\u201d. B\u0259 o, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259zmi, dem\u0259zmi, \u0259, bu, adam d\u00f6y\u00fcl, uyuqdur. Amma o, m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259yri baxsa, m\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b ona t\u0259pik vursam, bax onda o, m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 t\u00fck salacaq, h\u00f6rm\u0259t eliy\u0259c\u0259k, qabaq-q\u0259n\u015f\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 birinci salam ver\u0259c\u0259k. Bel\u0259dir, ya bel\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcl, a ki\u015fi? \u2013 bird\u0259n o, h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259siz atana t\u0259r\u0259f q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. O\u011ful atadan soru\u015fdu\u011fut\u0259k soru\u015fmad\u0131, evd\u0259 q\u0259dir-qiym\u0259ti itm\u0259k \u00fczr\u0259 olan adamdan soru\u015fant\u0259k soru\u015fdu. Atan ba\u015f\u0131a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 fa\u011f\u0131r-fa\u011f\u0131r oturmu\u015fdu. Sor\u011fusuna cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n: \u2013 Yaxam\u0131 burax, \u0259, \u2013 dey\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259mkirdi, \u2013 bo\u011fma m\u0259ni. S\u0259n onu ist\u0259yirs\u0259n ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm, s\u0259nin tay\u0131n olum?<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 olub, \u0259, m\u0259n\u0259? \u2013 qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin t\u0259sirind\u0259n daha t\u0259sirli n\u0259 is\u0259 yad bir \u015fey s\u0259ni bo\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. \u2013 M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259lik he\u00e7 kimin qoyununu o\u011furlamam\u0131\u015fam, o\u011furlamaq fikrind\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259, bu g\u00fcn\u0259 qalm\u0131san da, \u2013 ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f kimi o, s\u0259n\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dem\u0259y\u0259ydi g\u0259r\u0259k. S\u0259n ona di\u015finin dibind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan\u0131 des\u0259ydin d\u0259, lap t\u0259piyinin alt\u0131na salsayd\u0131n da, o, bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri s\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259m\u0259liydi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259, hans\u0131 g\u00fcn\u0259, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Korsan, \u0259, s\u0259n. \u2013 O, s\u0259si titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fc, tez d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sib, s\u0259si bu d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259rginlikd\u0259n q\u0131r\u0131la-q\u0131r\u0131la: \u2013 S\u0259nin bozarm\u0131\u015f \u015falvar-penc\u0259yin\u0259 baxanda az qal\u0131ram yer\u0259 gir\u0259m, \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, \u00fcmidli bir \u015fey xat\u0131rlamal\u0131yd\u0131n, ondan yap\u0131\u015fmal\u0131, p\u0259nah aparmal\u0131yd\u0131n ona, yoxsa \u0259lind\u0259n xata \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131, qan t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259rdi ortal\u0131\u011fa. Yad\u0131ndad\u0131m\u0131? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, yad\u0131ndad\u0131. On \u00fc\u00e7 il \u0259vv\u0259l s\u0259n institutun sonuncu kursunda oxuyanda eviniz\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdin, anan s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r sevincind\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 deyirdi: \u201cQarda\u015f\u0131n yaman \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir s\u0259ni. S\u0259n bay\u0131r-bacaya \u00e7\u0131xanda x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 dal\u0131nca bax\u0131r. B\u00fct\u00fcn qon\u015fular\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 s\u0259nin yeri\u015fin\u0259, oturu\u015funa, duru\u015funa tama\u015fa el\u0259yir. Abbas ki\u015finin, M\u0259sm\u0259 arvad\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 bax\u0131r s\u0259n\u0259, a\u011fl\u0131na k\u00fcl olmu\u015f (anan utana-utana g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc) D\u0259mirin q\u0131z\u0131 Q\u0259ndab\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnn\u0259n d\u0259 bax\u0131r s\u0259n\u0259\u201d. Bel\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t, ist\u0259k sehrind\u0259 ya\u015famaq g\u00f6z\u0259liydi. \u0130ndi n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu? A\u015f\u0131q demi\u015fk\u0259n, m\u0259nmi d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m, ya zamanam\u0131?<\/p>\n

S\u0259n indi yumruqla onun a\u011f\u0131z-burnunu da\u011f\u0131dacaq, qan\u0131na q\u0259ltan el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, di\u015fl\u0259rini t\u00f6k\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n ki, bir d\u0259 bel\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259sin. Sa\u011f qolunu qald\u0131r\u0131b, onun sif\u0259tin\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli z\u0259rb\u0259 endirirs\u0259n, ancaq qarda\u015f\u0131n c\u0259ld t\u0259rp\u0259nir, \u0259lb\u0259\u0259l bil\u0259yini tutub m\u0259ng\u0259n\u0259 kimi s\u0131x\u0131r v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 s\u0259ni geri it\u0259l\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Baxmaram b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259, \u00f6ld\u00fcrr\u0259m s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Dirs\u0259yin eyvan\u0131n dir\u0259yin\u0259 d\u0259yib b\u0259rk a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r. Lakin bir anl\u0131\u011fa duydu\u011fun, s\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7ox ist\u0259y\u0259n ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f\u0131nda bu kin-k\u00fcdur\u0259t hardand\u0131r fikrind\u0259n el\u0259 sars\u0131l\u0131rsan, a\u011fr\u0131 yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Bu vaxt atan\u0131n s\u0259si eyvan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bo\u011fu\u015fun, bo\u011fu\u015fun, k\u00f6p\u0259y u\u015fa\u011f\u0131. Ay it, qoyma. \u00c7\u0259mb\u0259r, bo\u011f onu, Bozdar, \u00f6ld\u00fcr, ay\u0259, qoyma, hay-huy, ay\u0259, su g\u0259tirin. Harf, harf, itd\u0259r q\u0131rd\u0131 bir-birini.<\/p>\n

Anan s\u00fcd\u00fc yer\u0259 calanm\u0131\u015f qazan \u0259lind\u0259 qoyunlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, \u0259l at\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc c\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 A d\u0259li k\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flu, niy\u0259 q\u0131rd\u0131r\u0131rsan bunlar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259? \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n tikan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131rsan?!<\/p>\n

Atan\u0131n gur-gur guruldayan, qeyzli-q\u0259z\u0259bli, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00fccl\u00fc s\u0259si ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 dondurur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Donuz q\u0131z\u0131 donuz, m\u0259n bunlar\u0131 \u0259kmi\u015f\u0259m ki, bir-birini q\u0131rs\u0131nlar?<\/p>\n

Bax bu anda qan\u0131n \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr, b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0259lbinl\u0259 atan\u0131 Allaht\u0259k sevirs\u0259n. Sars\u0131lm\u0131\u015f halda fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n: s\u0259n atan\u0131 indiki kimi he\u00e7 vaxt bu c\u00fcr ayd\u0131n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mis\u0259n, anlamam\u0131san.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r anan\u0131n \u015firin s\u0259si s\u0259ni yuxudan oyad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Dur, qadan al\u0131m, ay \u015eahmar. D\u0259d\u0259n qoyun k\u0259sib, dur bir kabab \u00e7\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Durursan. K\u00f6yn\u0259yinin yaxas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, barmaqlar\u0131n xo\u015f bir duy\u011fudan titr\u0259yir, \u0259sir. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, y\u0259qin, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259rin\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u00fcmidd\u0259ndir. E\u015fiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan. Eyvandan aral\u0131 qan g\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259si var, g\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259nin d\u0259 q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda ax\u015famk\u0131 qa\u015f\u0131-g\u00f6z\u00fc qara, boynu muncuqlu \u015fi\u015f\u0259yin ba\u015f\u0131. S\u0259n donub-qal\u0131rsan, he\u00e7 c\u00fcr g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qoyunun \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259t\u0259k m\u0259nas\u0131z, boz, donuq g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ay\u0131ra bilmirs\u0259n. \u0130ndi yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr ki, kims\u0259 n\u0259 vaxtsa s\u0259n\u0259 eyhamla demi\u015fdi: \u201cQoyung\u00f6z\u201d.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u015eahmar\u0131n hekay\u0259si   Qoyung\u00f6z   Getm\u0259k, m\u00fctl\u0259q getm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Getm\u0259k, getm\u0259k. \u0130namla, q\u0259ti v\u0259 ciddi. K\u0259nd\u0259 gedir\u0259m, evimiz\u0259. Gedim g\u00f6r\u00fcm nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rlar. Ba\u015f qa\u015f\u0131ma\u011fa vaxt yoxdur, vallah. Sabah, ya birig\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram. \u0130ni\u015fil getdiyimdir. Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 yuxuda anam\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fitmi\u015f\u0259m, \u201cg\u0259l\u201d deyir, \u201cg\u0259l\u201d. S\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xsam, g\u00fcnortadan sonra ordayam. Sabah \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram, gedir\u0259m sabah. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 \u0259linizd\u0259n, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":1649,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[63],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1648","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-proza"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1648","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1648"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1648\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1650,"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1648\/revisions\/1650"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1649"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1648"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1648"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/imza.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1648"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}